sucks...
a lot sometimes.
like now.

It is at times like this when you realize that you have been pretending that life is great, and that it really isn't. You feel empty and numb and like you should be on medication or in therapy... but then you feel stupid. You should be torn apart but at the same time you have to be strong for everyone elses sake and it can't go both ways... so you just shut down, because it's easier that way.

I know I'm depressed and I know exactly why, but it still doesn't make sense. I've lost the person who was closest to me and life just continues to go by with no sign of stopping.

It seems so pointless, when the things that matter most can be taken from you without any warning or provocation. You don't get the chance to defend them. They are there one moment and gone the next, and you're left without any explaination or way of fighting back.

LIFE SUCKS